it's november again. . .

i never really look forward to november i haven't for a long time now. it gets cold....everything is so blah...and every november 15th i am reminded of a friend that i lost who would be one year older if he was still around. i can't believe it has been 6 years....
now this november i am reminded of not only one person i've lost but three. there are three birthdays in november of people that i knew who are not here to celebrate being a year older... do they celebrate wherever they are now? do they even know its their birthday or even have a birthday there? do they know we are here thinking about them...
anyways...i hate november...i hate cold weather....i always feel so depressed this time of the year...and will continue to feel this way until like february...winter puts me down...(note to self: : move somewhere warmer..SOON)