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i really enjoyed britney on HIMYM. she was her usual cute self. nothing really suprising or anything. she's always really good on screen.

so i'm absolutely in love with this bag...i want it soooo bad. it's only $35 but i'm seriously on such a tight budget with the wedding i can't afford it. it sucks so bad. i'm a huge kurt halsey fan and i love his birds. that's the tattoo i'm getting next. the birds from the "always member." so yeah if anyone wants to purchase the bag for me i'd really appreciate it. hehe i've been waiting for him to come out with some new stuff for months and now that it's finally here i can't friggin afford it. damnit....

so i'm really having a hard time figuring out who i want to be my "maid of honor" i really dont' know. i have four great close friends..they all mean something different to me. one has been my friend since we were like 6 and have lived and grew up just down the road from eachother since then. one has been my best friend for about 10 years now. we've been thru everything together. death, life, love, etc. and we've been on vacations together and just do everything together. from come to the doctor with me to go to wal-mart with me. hehe one friend who happens to be my best friends cousin is alot like me. we both fell in love very young, we act and think alot a like. we have SO MUCH fun together. and my last friend who i met thru my best friend...we've been best friends for about 8 or 9 years. we are alot alike too. we used to go out together all the time and we were really close when our boyfriends were good friends. it's just so hard to decide because my friend whom i've known forever, me and her really aren't that close anymore....ya know we kinda went our seperate ways after school. my best friend who i've been thru it all with....is one of my first choices. the only thing with her sometimes i think because she doesn't have a serious love in her life..she doesn't truly understand how important this day is to me...then my other friend just seems like she doesn't ever tell me anything. ya know if your best friends with someone they are soposed to tell you everything...and when she started dating her ex-boyfriend again everyone knew about it but me. even people that wasn't close to her or there for her during tough times knew before me. she said it was because she knew i didn't like him and i'd be upset...but in the end i was more upset that she kept it from me. so it's hard for me to make her an important part in my wedding when sometimes i feel like i'm not really an important part in her life. i don't know. i've kinda just wanted to have NO maid of honor. i know there is alot more things i need to stress out about than that...but we'll see what happens.

so tomorrow is march 26 which means 4 MONTHS UNTIL I'M MARRIED! it's so crazy to think about that. it's seems just like yesterday we got engaged. hehe...and now were four months away from our wedding day. it's crazy.

we made reservations at the boat this friday. i'm so excited to go. were gonna go down friday when we get off and stay the nite...party at the bar downstairs with a band that i heard is REALLY GOOD and then we are of course gonna do a little gambling. then stay there.. and then saturday morning wake up and drive down to owensboro ky and watch jc play softball.

well i'm watching big brother and it's getting really good so i'm gonna wrap this up...