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i am so tired of planning this wedding. don't get me wrong, i'm SO EXCITED to be marrying the love of my life...and i can't wait to get married...i'd do it tomorrow if we could. and i'm so excited for the reception and just having a big party with my jc and my friends and family. i really could care less about the ceremony... i just want to marry him! my mom is driving me crazy about it. i don't care about the marriage...i'm just ready for us to be married and spend the rest of our lives together. marriage smarriage. hehe
so..i'm still sick. i was miserable at work today. by the afternoon my sick symptoms were getting better (sore throat, runny nose, chills/sweats) but by then i was exhausted from being sick and didn't even want to get outta my seat. and i haven't stopped coughing all nite.
last nite i only got about 4 1/2 to 5 hours of sleep just because i couldn't get comfortable. i was hot then cold....then i coughed....i hope it isn't another restless nite.
so i have an appointment tomorrow morning at david's bridal. i'm really not happy with that place at all. the staff is friendly and all but they're just so damn pushy. i just wanna be like..listen i came in here to spend money..YOU WILL GET MY MONEY! so just let me be....and when i'm ready i'll give you my cash. they just have to be on ya the whole time...and ask ya like 200 questions. i purchased my dress there like 2 or 3 weeks ago...i had to order it and now that i have it i hate it. so i'm taking it back tomorrow and ordering a different one. i think i'm still ordering the same style, but in a smaller size and different color. the one i tried on there was ivory and the one i ordered was white with a green band across the top. i hate it. i don't know what it is but i think it looks like trash. i absolutely loved it when i tried it on in the ivory in the store...but when i got this one....i hated it. i wanted to CRY when i put it on for the first time.
when i walked outta the dressing room in the ivory one at the store my best friend tabby got all teary-eyed. we knew it was "the one" as everyone calls it. ya know "the one" is the one people say you put on you just know it's made for ya....you know "the force is with you." hehe
anyways....so hopefully that goes by fast and painless tomorrow. i love the thought of getting married...and getting a wedding dress and being a princess for a day....i hate the idea of trying on 20 lb dresses one after another after another.....especially right now when i'm sick.
well i'm off to bed. JC has a softball tournament in the morning and into the afternoon tomorrow. so hopefully I can get my wedding dress shopping done and come home and get some rest... i gotta start feeling better...i hate being sick.