25

so it just so happens that this is my 25th post on my blog, which also happens to be the age i turned on 8-8-08. it seems like just yesterday i remember my 14th birthday or 16th birthday....it's so crazy that i'm 25. as you get older you can't really remember your birthday...like i remember my 16th and 18th...not so much anything after that. so friday after i got my new drivers license and i was driving on my way to the unemployment office i thought...hmm..i really don't want to look back and remember this birthday as the birthday i lost my job. haha i wanted to look back and remember this is the birthday when i was married to my husband and was happy and at peace with everything.. and that was exactly what it was.. was i pissed off and bitter about losing my job? well yeah of course i was...but was that job my life? absolutely not. it was 9 hours a day m-f. that's it. i didn't enjoy it. it wasn't me. so yeah i was upset more than anything that she had threatened to lay me off 3 days before our wedding..so when she actually did it the day before my birthday...i was fine with it. but i didn't want that memory to be my memory when i thought back on my 25th birthday. so...as i was driving away from the unemployment office i thought hmmm....i want to do something that i will always remember that i did this on my 25th birthday... so i got a tattoo....well...2 tattoos to be exact. hehe and i absolutely love them. I know that everytime i look at them i'll remember what they mean to me. Everytime I think about my 25th birthday i'll remember i went and did something for myself. something i enjoyed. something that will be with me forever.

even though i am 25 now i'm still a kid at heart... i cant' imagine not being who i am now..or who i was when i was 16. i guess in some situations i can tell i am much more mature than i once was...but i still can't imagine not being the fun, outgoing, immature person that i am. and i can't imagine my friends acting any different either. i think we'll always be the same.

so if i hadn't already posted...i lost my job. i was told a few days before the wedding that they were closing their 2nd clinic in carlisle and that the person who worked there had been with the company for 13 years...i had only been here for 3 1/2 years so when that clinic closes she'd be coming up here and we'd be overstaffed...so i would no longer be needed. i was so upset that she told me just a few days before the wedding because instead of that day being my last day she said well i'm not sure when it will happen... which meant i could have a job for another week or month so why worry me about it days before my wedding. so when i got back from our honeymoon i worked all week...except for friday i was off because it was my birthday and one of the doctors was off half day so i wasn't needed anyways... but thursday around 4:30 i found out that as of 5:00pm that day my job there was finished.

so i'll be collecting unemployment until i find a new job. i went and signed up for it friday and i'm not sure when i'll get my first check or how much it will be. it did say i would have a waiting week the first week where i won't get anything.. so i'm not really expecting anything for like 2 weeks...yesterday i got all the laundry caught up and today i got the entire house cleaned..so tomorrow is day 1 of working on my webpage. i'm getting up early and working on it all day. i'm hoping to get it going so that it's opened by september and can start making money on it. i'm also turing our computer room into my craft room.. i'm finally gonna get my sewing machine set up and all my craft stuff organized and start making stuff on the side.. hopefully i can sell some things on etsy and make some extra money here and there.. anything will help. i'd love to be able stay at home and just make money working online and such...especially if jc and i ever decide to have kids..but who knows... we are both still kids ourselves. hehe we both have big dreams of what we want in life.. the best thing about any of it though...is that we're doing it together...job or no job....doesn't matter i'm so extremely happy at this point in my life...it doesn't really matter. (that's jc making sure that there was no food left over at the wedding reception.. he's so cheap..he didnt' want any to go to waste.)