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so on wednesday the 23rd of july i was told by my boss that i was getting laid off and would no longer have a job... of course being 3 days before my wedding i was upset/pissed off and wanted to kill her. of course now after i've had sometime to think about it (yes i'm still pissed she told me 3 days before my wedding, especially considering that she wasn't actually going to lay me off until september but chose to tell me on that paticular day) anyways...i have came to realize it is a blessing in disguise. i mean i could care less about working there... yes there are a few people there that i work with that i consider my friends...and would hate that i don't work with them anymore....but if were really friends will stay in touch... anyways....i haven't been happy there for a while... and i always knew that after justin and i were married and i had his insurance it wouldn't matter anymore...and i knew i wanted to look for a job then... so this is just pushing me to actually do it. and of course my dream is to have my own online company.. ya know work from home online...crafting and making things...and i'm gonna do it.. i mean i've bought my webpage....and everyday i'm taking steps to make it happen. and it will. and now i know by getting laid off that is going to give me the opportunity to stay at home.. still making money from unemployment but being able to be home fulltime and get stuff done... so i know it's all gonna work out...and the best part is i have an awesome husband who supports me.

so i really didn't go into detail before about my "bridesmaid drama" but just in a short story... all 4 of my bridesmaids i consider my "best friends." each one of them are my friends for a different reason. and each one of them are just as important as the other. but one friend seems to think shes more important than the rest.. or something...

see...back when justin and i were engaged in dec of 2005 the first person i called was my best friend tabby and i told her of course your my maid of honor...shes my best friend and has been for a long time.. she's always there for me when i need her and i do the same for her. i feel like out of my best friends she is the one that no matter what is on my side...no matter good or bad she has my back...and i'm not so sure about other people. anyways...so i told her back then and i had every intention of making sure that 2 years later when we finally got hitched she'd be the one right next to me. and i didn't want it any other way. so that's the way it happened.. well apparently one of my other friends (who was second in line in the bridesmaid line up) was pissed or whatever...and thru a little tantram the nite of the rehearsal when she found out and was sorta crappy towards tabby and made comments to her like "well you know you have to straighten he train on her dress...i'm not doing it....you have to your the "maid of honor". okay..i'm sorry but who cares.....i mean my bridesmaid who was standing the farthest away from me helped me. she got the birdseed outta my hair, she straightened my dress, she helped with everything... i had known her since kindergarten yet she wasn't my maid of honor...but she still treated me that day like she was....because like i said...they are all important to me.. so anyways...everyone at work says its because she's jealous of me because i'm married and happy and maybe shes not.. and ya know...maybe shes not happy...but its none of our faults..it's the negative attitude that she has day in and day out...shes the same bridesmaid that on my nite my bachlorette party got mad because we were gonna go where I wanted to go...on MY NITE...hello? i don't know....it just hurts me to know that she has to be so negative....i don't understand it....

also i guess she was going around telling everyone that jc was dancing all over her and flirting with her...and crap at the reception...hello.... he was dancing with me and all my bridesmaids.. it wasn't just her. i don't understand why she has to act like shes the center of attention and why she has to act like everything revolves around her? why can't she just think about others... and the funny thing is justin went up to tabby and said hey...your like a sister to me...your such a good friend to melissa...thanks for being in the wedding.. and he sincerely meant that...but did you hear her going around and bragging about it and trying to almost push it into peoples face?? no... and i guess what really ticks me off the most...is that she does it to make herself feel better..and try and make others feel bad... like she tried to make the other bridesmaids feel as if they're not as important..or as if he doesn't like them as much...and the funny thing is....he doesn't like her. out of all my friends she is the least liked by him and because of the drama she caused at the bachlorette party he didn't even want her in the wedding... but did i go and rub that in her face to make her feel bad?? no.. i keep it quiet.. because i'm not a negative person... grr...i just hate seeing people be down because of the way she treats them because i know how that feels because she used to do that to me.....but not anymore..i'm over it. i'm married and in love and don't give a fuck. haha and i wish others didn't either...

life is good....i'm so obsessed with blogging...it seems to really help with venting...i love it...i think i could make a career out of it...hehe oh the picture above is bella swimming in her pool...she loves it..and jc holding her so i can get a good picture.....