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so...i only have 21 days left until the wedding...and i have no money for the reception....i was planning on my dad throwing some money in but he decided not to...instead he said he'd rather just give us some money at the end of the nite for our honeymoon...he said he never spent alot of money on his other three kids weddings and that if he was working then he could work some overtime and have money..but with him being retired now he just can't do that... so i just said..okay and left it at that. what i really wanted to say was well...one of your kids was married twice, that's two weddings for her...one was married once but it was a really nice wedding....and i'm sure he paid money for that..and your son has been married 3 times...then i also wanted to say...well if your new "high matience" wife didn't make you take two cruises a year....move to florida and buy a house that you only live in 4 months of the year....then maybe you could share a little cash. don't get me wrong...my dad was very good to me when i was younger...and actually he's not my "biological" dad. he met my mom when she was pregnant with me and they got married when i was like two i think and he adopted me. i have no idea who my real dad is, never met him, and really don't care...because obviously he doesn't care. so i mean alot of the things i had when i was younger i owe it to him. BUT...unlike his other three children i am marrying to only marry once.. i'm only asking for your help once more.. i mean jc and i have been on our own for 4 years now.. and never once have i went back to my dad asking for help... saying "oh i lost my job....or oh i lost my house.. or oh please help me with this." and i go to him saying....hey we've already paid for everything else...i'm just asking with help on the food for the reception...i'm not asking for you to pay for it all even..i'm asking just give what you can...oh well...he just somewhat doesn't understand... like when i said that we got a dj...he was like "oh your going all out huh?" dude...that's what people do.. like he's older and his other three kids are older.. the youngest is 36 i'm 24...so yeah things are different now. they don't understand...they think a wedding is ... getting married at a church...having the reception at the church (their idea of a reception is cake and punch and opening gifts) umm...there's more to it.. so whatever..i'm not really stressing over it.. all that matters to me is that we get married that day. i don't care who shows up...i don't care if we get 100 gifts or no gifts.. i don't care what we have to eat or if we have anything to eat at all. i just want to get married....after the "i do's" i don't care... hehe ;o)
so...21 days until i'm Mrs. Copeland...i'm so effing excited...i just want it to be here.. like today.. it can't come fast enough...so jc is umpiring today...so my plans are cleaning the house and getting laundry done.. i may run down to walmart and print off some of our engagement pictures on their kodak picture machine.. and buy some picture frames.. i want to make a wall in our bedroom over our bed with our engagement pictures.. i love them all so much...then he'll be home no later than 6 and then we are going to the lake to watch fireworks. i can't wait...i love the 4th of july...well...time for me to start cleaning this place up i want everythign to be done..so the next 3 weeks i can concentrate on the wedding and us.